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| The fruit of my womb… |
| 09.30.04 (11:41 pm) |
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Bethany has been such a blessing in my life. Anyone with a child knows exactly what I am talking about. I never knew I was capable of love, like I have for her. Every since she was able to talk, we have a ritual at bedtime; I always say prayers with her. Nothing special, just the proverbial “now I lay me down to sleep”. Even last year when she was at my mothers, I called her every evening and we said “our” prayer. Up until recently she honestly thought it was just ours! Tonight after she went to bed I went up for prayers. The past few days have been stressful for the both of us. She’s going through changes that she doesn’t understand, and to be honest with you, I’m at a loss myself. After all was said and done, I lean over to give her a hug and a kiss, and before I can wrap my motherly arms around her and tell her how very much I love her, she says to me…"Hold on, I gotta fart." Kids… |
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| Breaking Benjamin |
| 09.30.04 (3:18 am) |
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Lately I have been scouting out new music. The other night Billy was watching MTV2 and there was a video for a band called Breaking Benjamin. I don’t listen to the radio, so this was the first time I’ve heard of them. The video was great as well as the song, “So cold”. I got curious and went and checked online for more information on this band. I have to tell you they are quickly becoming one of my favorite bands. I have also developed a massive crush on the lead singer, Ben Burnley. Also found out they are going to be here in Dallas on October 24th. They will be one of many bands playing what is called “The Freakers Ball”. Just a few of the other bands playing at this concert are; Velvet Revolver, Damageplan and Drowning Pool. Oh how I would LOVE to get tickets to this event!! Billy would love to see most of these bands as well. I thought of surprising him with tickets, however the current state of my checking account said “NO WAY LADY!!!”. So, unless I win the lottery…I’ll just have to wait! FYI….I did not get that job. It was down to two people, I being one of them. I do however have a few things in the works. The last company that hired me only for me to find out I couldn’t work there, now has three positions coming open. One of which is exactly the job I am looking for and is NOT in the same department as my mother. They are going to try and fill the positions from within before going public, so it’s a long shot, but it’s still a shot. The other is at a very prestigious family law firm not 15 minutes from my house! I’ve got my fingers crossed, but it could be a few weeks before I know about either of them. |
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| On the lighter side... |
| 09.29.04 (4:15 pm) |
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I got this via email...and thought it was amusing!! Had to share!! Here is a piece written by Andy Rooney - CBS 60 Minutes. As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why: A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 30 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And, it's usually something more interesting. A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 30 give a damn what you might think about her or what she's doing. Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get away with it. A woman over 30 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Women over 30 couldn't care less if you're attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won't betray her. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 30. They always know. A woman over 30 looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women or drag queens. A woman over 30 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk, if you are acting like one! You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her. Yes, we praise women over 30 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed hot woman of 30+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress. Ladies, I apologize. For all those men who say, "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free". Here's an update for you. Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage, why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig, just to get a little sausage... |
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| Intervention |
| 09.28.04 (12:16 am) |
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I have a friend…someone I consider to be one of my best friends. I’ve written about him before, his name is Josh. He and I have a friendship completely unlike any other friendship I have ever had. Outside of Jenn and my sister, I’ve always had guy friends. My best “guy-friend” in Jr. High was a guy named Cory. My mother so eloquently nicknamed him Button. Cuz’ he was “cute as a button”. We were never romantically involved; we were simply just the best of friends. He taught me how to drive a standard in his moms’ car. He was without a doubt the first man in my life to see me for who I really was. I lost him later in life to an overdose of cocaine. It was my first of many run-ins with this particular drug. At different points throughout my life I’ve been affected by the abuse of cocaine. My brother, my sister, friends and lovers have all fell victim to this demon. It ALWAYS ended tragically. It ALWAYS left a scar. I again find myself confronted by the ugly face of this addiction. I’m mortified as to what to do. Josh met a girl, a very bad girl. I have blogged about her once before. I had a gut feeling about this girl, and I was right. She opened a door and took him to a place he shouldn’t be. He has endured some very hard and trying times because of this. Not too long ago he lost his job, a very good job. He got arrested while with someone that was in “possession” of said substance. As hard as this is, and as much as I love him, I’m torn. I’m getting to the point where I normally wash my hands of the whole situation. However, I want to be his friend and help him. It just doesn’t feel like he’s in a place to help himself, and really doesn’t care too. How can I help him, if he doesn’t want to be helped? I’m really scared for him right now; today he has exhibited extreme behavior completely unlike him in every manner. He’s attempted to hide all of this from me, knowing very well how strongly I feel about it, but failed miserably. I’m asking for your thoughts, your experiences. Please feel free to lend your insight. If you would prefer, send me a private message. If you’ve ever been in this situation, how did you deal with it? If you haven’t, how do you think you would deal with it? Maybe you’ve been where he is and know what was done to help you past it? Whatever the case may be, I need help! This is one situation where I’m not too proud to ask for it. |
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| Thinking….. |
| 09.26.04 (9:08 pm) |
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I wish I could finish my education and finally get my degree….time just doesn’t allow… What the hell is up with the weather in Florida…haven’t these people had enough? There are some REALLY bad tippers in this world….and I wait on them every damn weekend… What the hell am I going to do with these hamsters??? (the female just had babies…4 of them) I would so love to get my hair colored….it’s been a very long time…thinking about putting some red in it… Soprano’s starts tomorrow night!! I need to buy potatoes and carrots for the pot roast I’m going to cook for dinner tomorrow night… It’s 1:09 am and I’m not even remotely tired… Me feet really hurt tonight… A hot bath sounds REALLY good right now… |
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| The weekend |
| 09.24.04 (11:11 am) |
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I still got nothing. I'm working most of the weekend too. I got the phone call today and have my second interview coming up next tuesday!! Yeah!! Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!! |
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| Nothing much |
| 09.20.04 (10:46 pm) |
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I don't really have anything to blog about. However I wanted to post something new. (it's been a few days) Last Friday I spent the afternoon with Jenn. We originally wanted to go check out some garage sells to kill time but ended up just driving around looking at houses that were for sale. For the past few months I've been contemplating buying a house. I really have the bug now. As much as I LOVE living in the city, I want Bethany to grow up in a real neighborhood. I want her to be able to go outside and play and ride her bike. I want to be closer to my friends and family. I want to know that when I sign a check for rent, it's actually going towards something that will one day be mine! I got to spend some time with my mom and sister on Sunday. Every since the situation with Bethany, I felt there was tension between us. Sunday erased all those fears. I only spent a few hours there, because I had to work that night. It felt like old times again. I had a job interview today that went fairly well. I seem to lack the ability to tell if things went good or bad. It always seems to go the opposite of what I thought it did. However the lady that interviewed me today wants me to come back next week for another interview with the owner. That has to mean something right? It's not exactly what I wanted, I would have to commute again, but it's a paying job, with room for growth, and that (at this point) is what I want more than anything! Cross your fingers for me!?! |
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| It's official.... |
| 09.15.04 (5:05 pm) |
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NEW YORK (AP) -- The National Hockey League is locking out its players starting Thursday, threatening to keep the sport off the ice for the entire 2004-05 season and perhaps beyond in an effort by management to gain massive change in the sport's economic structure. This sadens me GREATLY!! I don't know if I can go on without my hockey......what's a girl to do???? |
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| My dog Roo |
| 09.14.04 (8:11 pm) |
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I have come to realize that there are a LOT of people in this world that Hate dogs. I’m actually amazed….my post man is one of these people. It probably stems from the fact that he is scared shitless of them as well. The man will literally drop mail and HAUL ass to get away from Roo. Whether Roo even realizes he’s there or not. He hates me too, because I laugh every time. (I know...I’m going to hell…) I can completely respect a “healthy” fear of all animals. I grew up respecting them, and knowing how to behave around them. I grew up with Doberman’s and around Pit bulls. Roo looks nothing like a pit bull; he looks exactly like a Ridgeback. There is nothing even remotely threatening about this dog…except for his tongue. It’s the longest fastest tongue I have ever seen! And still my mail man is petrified. There is also a family around the corner that freaks at the very site of him. They aren’t from here, and I don’t even try to guess what country they are from. I know that it is a country VERY afraid of dogs. One day the father, grandfather and two small boys came up on us as we were coming out to walk. I seriously thought the father was going to throw the smaller of the two boys from his shoulders to better his chances of getting away from my little Roo. It’s hysterical and sad all at the same time. (I still laugh, and I’m still going to hell for it….) Mind you he has never jumped on anyone; he is walked on a leash. The fact that he’s doubling in size with each passing day doesn’t help the fear factor at all. He’s freaking huge for four and a half months and shows absolutely no signs of slowing down! Gone are the 8lb bags of dog food, in are the 40lb bags! If I had only known….. He is actually a very smart creature. His training is going really well, but he’s still a puppy and still needs more. One of these days I might send him for some formal training, but for now he’s doing really well. He loves toys more than me, the one who feeds him. He has his own “toy box” over flowing with all kinds of goodies. His favorite toy however is whatever pair of shoes Bethany has forgotten down stairs. Mind you he only chews on her shoes! He’s too afraid of the stairs so we only had to “puppy proof” the downstairs. Nina my calico tabby is his second favorite toy! Some times she tolerates him, others she flat out hates him. My Siamese detests him and pops him with his clawless paws every chance he gets. I have seen this cat come from upstairs just to beat on Roo. (Yeah…I laugh…I know…hell is waiting) If I had a current photo I would post it…but I can’t seem to get batteries that will last in my digital camera. I think I got a bad batch. Soon I promise! For now I’m off to pick up the shredded insides of a Dare Devil doll!! |
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| Car trouble… |
| 09.13.04 (10:54 pm) |
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Saturday Bethany ended up staying the night with Ally. Those two have become the best of friends, despite their age difference. (Ally is 8 Bethany is 12) I love knowing that these two can look forward to a friendship like Jenn and I have. I had to work on Sunday evening, so Jenn and I arranged to meet at a Truck stop that was half way for both of us. Everything was fine, I had company on the trip with one of my neighbors kid Nicole. This child brings back memories. She never stops asking questions. It was hilarious some of the questions she came up with. We pick up Bethany and both had to use the restroom, so we go inside get some things and head back to the car. And then it didn’t happen. My car would not start! A quick call to Jenn and 45 minutes later Chris was there with jumper cables and I was on my way home. So today I get up, threw on some jeans and a tank top, brushed my teeth and hair and headed over to NTB to purchase a new battery. I walk in and there was about 15 guys (and men) standing around. One of the salesmen there recognized me from the races and made a point to let the entire room know I raced cars! I was a little embarrassed at first, but after thirty minutes of questions and one autograph to a mesmerized 8 year old boy, I felt like a celebrity! There were all these men running around getting me anything I wanted, and it was fanfuckingtastic! Did wonders for my self esteem! So yeah, I had some car trouble, but hey it was more than worth it!! Isn’t life grand!? |
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| A trip to the country |
| 09.12.04 (8:55 pm) |
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It’s not as glamorous as it sounds, but that is exactly how Billy refers to going to Jenn’s house. Which I find extremely amusing, He is such a city boy! He doesn’t have a clue! We ALL piled into the car yesterday afternoon and took a trip to Jenn’s house. Chris and Billy were going hunting, while Jenn and I cooked dinner. I have to admit; I was a little more than petrified of Billy out in the “country” with a loaded gun in his hand! He’s more accident prone than I am! His last words to me were “Don’t be mad if I come back dead.” I knew I should have gotten that insurance policy on him!! I don’t know if this was fate stepping in, but they didn’t see hardly any dove, so Billy got to destroy a Gatorade bottle instead. They came home just as they had left, thank God! Jenn and I had a blast hanging in the kitchen, while she cooked dinner. This woman is one of the best cooks EVER! It’s no wonder I like to eat the way I do! I LOVE food, for some reason, I was given hyper sensitive taste buds, and food just tastes really really good to me! Especially Jenn’s cooking! Maybe we can talk her into posting her recipe, it was divine! Then we got all the kiddos to bed, and went to have coffee on the front porch. I have to tell you; sometimes I really miss living down there. I miss the quiet, the smell, the peacefulness of it all. It’s amazing how just driving thirty five miles south can change your surroundings so much. It’s a different world down there, and I miss it. I got my day of rest, so to speak. I got to hang out with Jenn, I got to relax and bullshit with the ones I love the most, I got fed like a queen, and I feel incredible today! It’s amazing how a few hours with family can change your entire attitude! I’m focused again, and it feels great! |
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| Craziness personified |
| 09.08.04 (6:30 pm) |
| Life can be so hectic sometimes. Time flies by so fast you can’t even remember what you ate for dinner last night. So much so that the little things we love get pushed aside for another day. I’m still waiting for that day… |
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